Title: Distracted 1/? Author: WildePet, hcwilde@yahoo.de Feedback: Uh, yes? Please? Pairing: S/X Rating: R for now Disclaimer: Right. Xander and Spike and the rest of the bunch are not mine, they belong to whoever they belong to, Joss Whedon and the whole lot... No harm intended, no money made, don' t sue me... Summary: There' s a new vamp in town... Okay, that was lame, but bear with me. Notes 1: Starts in season one. So I obviously changed a few minor details... Notes 2: Luv ya, Piglet.
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Xander still couldn' t believe what he had done. Or hadn' t done, really. It had been an accident. He didn' t think that he would have staked Jesse. He might have been a vampire, but it had hardly been his fault, had it? After all, whatever the others said, he had still been Jesse. Not just Jesse' s dead body animated by a demon. He couldn`t bring himself to believe that. Although it would make it easier to deal with the guilt. He felt guilty for killing Jesse. Willow had said it wasn' t his fault. That Jesse had died before. Great. And he had sent his best friend to hell. It hurt. It just hurt so much. The girls had talked him into going to the movies with them. He wasn' t really looking forward to it. But they said the distraction would be good for him. Distracting. He jumped when the phone started to ring. "Yes?" It was Willow. "No, no, it' s all right. No, I' m okay. Don' t worry about the Xandman." Right. No cinema tonight. Giles had scheduled another training session for Buffy for tonight. Something important. Damn it, everything was more important than he was apparently. He hadn' t really wanted to go out, but now that Willow had cancelled their meeting, he was disappointed. With a sigh he got up, grabbed a stake and his jacket and left.
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He had no idea how he' d ended up at the cinema, of all places. Watching a movie he didn`t want to watch. The cinema was almost empty, and he was sitting on his own in the last row but one. Ten minutes into the film, somebody entered the cinema and sat down exactly behind him. Xander cast the newcomer a bemused look over his shoulder. Some bleach haired punk. Xander shrugged and concentrated on the screen again. Suddenly he was seized by inhumanly strong hands and yanked back into the last row. "What...?!" he managed before the stranger stuffed something into his mouth. Fearfully he glanced up at his attacker and froze when he noticed the ridges and the fangs in the semi-darkness. Vampire. Shit. Fuck. He fumbled for his stake. "Hush," the vampire whispered. "Don' t fight it." Xander found the stake and thrust his into the vampire' s chest with all his might. The vampire howled in pain and wrenched the stake out of his hand. "You know what I am, lad?" he asked surprised. Xander glared at him and resumed his struggles. "What a shame, such a brave little boy." Xander spat out the handkerchief the vampire had stuffed into his mouth. "My name is Xander," he said angrily. "Nice to meet you, Xander," the vampire replied with a leer. "How come you know about vampires, pet?" "Shhhhh!" somebody hissed. "Get off me!" Xander said. "Keep the volume down, or I' ll kill every bloody human in the cinema, understand?" "Otherwise you' ll just kill me?" Xander whispered back. "Yep, the choice is all yours, luv." "Gee, thanks."
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Spike looked down at the writhing human underneath him. He was intrigued. He' d come to Sunnydale because he' d heard that his Sire was in town. He' d been trying to track him down for years. Dru was hurt and weak, she needed her Sire. She had absolutely refused to leave Prague, so he' d reluctantly left her behind in the care of a dozen minions. He liked the Hellmouth. The people living on the Hellmouth were usually extraordinarily careless and unsuspecting. He' d never met anyone in Sunnydale who was aware of the existence of vampires and demons before. And this boy, not only did he know about vampires, he was even prepared to fight them. "Answer my question, Xander," he said. "One of them killed my best friend," Xander deadpanned. There was something in the boy' s voice that told him that he wasn' t telling the whole story. "Now that' s quite ironic, isn' t it? That you as well will be killed by a vampire," Spike continued. "Or maybe I' ll turn you. Do you want to be a vampire, Xander?" "No!" Xander cried. Spike hastily covered the boy' s mouth with his hand. "Shut the bloody hell up, will ya?" Xander nodded slowly. "Let' s take this someplace more private." Changing back into his human visage, he yanked the boy to his feet and dragged him out of the cinema with him. Outside, the streets were surprisingly crowded. "Not a word or there' ll be a massacre, got that? And don' t try to run, I' m faster than you," Spike hissed. "Like anybody would try to help me, anyway," Xander replied with a shrug. Where are we going?" "Any suggestions?" Spike asked. "There' s a lovely dark alleyway right over there. Perfect for a kill," Xander said, his voice dripping with irony. Boy, the lad had a dark sense of humour. And still, no fear. "Right," Spike replied.
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Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit. Reluctantly Xander followed the vampire into the dark alley. He could only hope they would run into Buffy on patrol. He glanced at his watch. No such luck, as it seemed. It was too early for her to be on patrol. "What' s up, boy?" the vampire asked. "Wanna know the time of your death?" Xander blanched and for the first time realised that he was going to die. Now. And he didn' t want to die. "Please," he whispered. "What?" The vampire stopped. "I offered you a choice," he said. "Remember?" "Yeah," Xander replied. "Great choice. Me or twenty innocent people." The vampire laughed. "I know what most people would have chosen, luv. But not you. Nah, you' re the noble white knight, willing to sacrifice yourself. Amazing, really. And who tells you I' m not going to go back and kill them all anyway?" "I am not stupid," Xander said. "I know that this isn' t going to keep you from killing anybody else." The vampire pushed Xander back against a wall. He grunted when his head hit the wall hard. "Damn," he cursed. "Ooops," the vampire said with a sneer. "Sorry, did I hurt you?" "Yes, you did, you goddamn freak," Xander yelled. "I told you to shut the fuck up, didn`t I?" "I' m going to die anyway, so why should I?" Xander replied disdainfully. "I could make this a whole lot more painful for you," the vampire said. "Why don`t you kill me already?" Xander asked. "Patience, luv, patience. Maybe I won' t kill you at all." "What?!" What the fuck was this idiot vamp going on about? Why didn' t he just snap his neck or something? No, he had to run into a vamp that wanted to talk. The vampire smiled toothily.
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God, this boy was fun to play with. Angelus had always wanted him to toy with the food first, but he' d usually preferred a quick kill. As long as it was all blood and gore he was perfectly happy. "Relax, pet. If you' re a good boy, you never know, I might just decide to let you go," Spike whispered. He could see the wheels in the boy' s head turning. "A... a good boy?" he finally stammered. "What do you mean?" Spike claimed his lips in a bruising and brutal kiss. Shocked, the boy tried to break free again, but Spike had him securely pinned to the wall. He really loved being a vampire. When the boy stopped struggling, Spike darted his tongue into his mouth, exploring and claiming at the the same time. He wanted the boy. Xander. What kind of stupid name was that anyway? What the hell... They' d choose another name once... "No, please, no," Xander moaned into the kiss, trying to move his head away. Chuckling Spike broke the kiss. He could feel the boy' s erection throbbing against his thigh. Teenagers. So easily excited.
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He couldn' t believe that he was hard. That his body was betraying him like this. "Like it, pet?" the vampire drawled. "No," Xander panted, trying to push the vampire back in vain. Great. Not only was he going to be killed, he was also going to be raped by some psycho queer vampire punk. On the bright side, he wasn' t going to die a virgin. And his body didn`t really seem to mind that... "I am not gay," Xander stated firmly. "Sure?" the vampire asked, releasing Xander' s wrists and letting his hands roam over the young man' s body. Xander stood frozen for a couple of seconds, considering his options. He couldn' t really see a way out of this. If he dragged this out long enough, Buffy might eventually come to his rescue. But did he really want to drag this out? He sucked in a deep breath when the vampire brushed his hand casually over his erection.
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Spike smiled satisfied. Very cute and damn responsive. Virgin, if he wasn' t mistaken. He had no intention of raping the boy. He preferred his partners willing. And he knew how to make them willing. "Ah, perfect, pet, all hard for me, aren' t you?" he whispered seductively, continuing the light stroking of the boy' s erection. "Want me to continue?" "No," Xander ground out, supressing a moan. "Please. Don' t..." "Yeah, that' s it, luv. I like it when they beg... Makes me feel all... powerful," Spike drawled on.
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Xander closed his eyes, desperately trying to block out the pleasant sensations the vampire was creating. But somehow his body had developed a life of its own as it seemed. He realised that he was actually leaning into the vampire' s touch and jerked back violently. His head hit the wall with a loud thud once more. He saw stars and his ears were ringing. No wait. Confused, Xander blinked once, twice. The vampire had taken a step back from him and was cursing creatively into a cell phone. "What the fuck are you talking about, Vince? I told you not to let her... Yeah, whatever... You are a bleedin' moron, you know that, don' t you? Stupid wanker... You better make sure she doesn' t try anything like that again until I' m back or I' ll demonstrate some lovely torture techniques I picked up from Angelus to you... You know, Vince, if you know how to do it, you can keep a vamp alive for months... Oh, I see, you' re getting the picture. Not as dumb as you seem, are you? Now get the hell back to her before..." The vampire stared at the phone for a couple of seconds and Xander finally realised that if he wanted to get out of this alley alive, now would be the perfect opportunity. He made it as far as the next trash can before the vampire tackled him down, sending him head first into said trash can. "I' d love to play with you some more but unfortunately I have family business to attend to first," the vampire said, pinning him to the ground. Xander felt the vampire' s fangs graze over his jugular and futily struggled to push him off. He hissed in surprise when the vampire sank his fangs into the fleshy part of his shoulder instead. After a couple of seconds the vampire pulled back. "I' ll be back for you, pet," he whispered into Xander' s ear, sending shivers down his spine. Then he jumped to his feet and disappeared into the darkness. Stunned, Xander remained lying on his back for a couple of minutes before it occurred to him that that was probably not the wisest thing to do. Rubbing his bitemark, he got up, cursing silently when his knees almost gave way because the stupid alley kept spinning around him. He certainly had a concussion. But on the bright side, he wasn' t dead. Yet.
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Well, well, well, Spike thought with an almost proud smile. If that wasn't his boy, dancing with the Slayer herself. Of course he'd have to kill her for touching what was his but he’d come back to Sunnydale to kill her anyway That was what he did, wasn't it? He'd faced four Slayers, and killed two, and he fully planned to add another to the list. Killing the Slayer was only one of many reasons why he'd returned. That was what had finally convinced Dru to leave Europe. "Come, let me kill the Slayer for you, and we'll bathe in her blood." On the Hellmouth, no less. No way he was going to leave her alone again after what had happened last time. His beautiful princess had almost taken a walk in the morning sun, singing about the stars and pretty boys or some such rot. Yeah, right, he admittedly had a pretty good idea what that had been about. Her mental state had become even less stable than usual and he really had to find Angelus soon. It had taken him much longer than he had expected to get back to Sunnyhell with her safely. Drusilla was getting worse and she needed her Sire, his blood and his care Spike was royally pissed off that he couldn’t give her what she needed, he had been taking care of her for the last century but now he was at a loss. But he'd be damned if he’d let Angelus come between them again, even though he'd probably have to crawl back to him and beg him to save Dru. And he sure as hell hoped that the stuff he'd heard about their Sire through the demon grapevine wasn't true, because in that case Angelus would be less than happy to see them again. He shook his head and turned his attention back to the boy, Xander. The other reason for his return to Sunnydale. The one he had not mentioned to Dru. But he knew that somehow she knew about him, anyway. She always knew. He looked good, better than last year. A little more mature, less stressed out. Happier; less willing to die. What a shame. He'd stopped dancing and was chatting amiably with a cute redhead, who was apparently as hopelessly in love with him as he was with the Slayer if Spike wasn't mistaken. Maybe he could turn the girl, too. She'd make a nice plaything for his pet. Or he'd just kill her. Or even better, let him kill her. Best friends always made a perfect first meal. Right after family. With a sigh he went over to the idiot he'd brought along to play with the Slayer. No use putting this off any longer. "Go get something to eat," he muttered. He had a part to play as well, so he moved over to the door to make his big entrance. Making sure that the Slayer was in earshot, he burst over to some people by the bar, shouting for someone to call the police. He watched her dart towards the exit out of the corner of his eye. There. Worked like a charm. Except, why did the stupid pillock run after her? Did he want to get killed? Shit. He flicked his cigarette to the ground angrily and stomped after them.
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Outside the Slayer was majorly kicking arse. His boy and the redhead thankfully knew better than to interfere. Spike stepped back into the shadows to watch. The Slayer and the vamp he'd sent outside to grab a snack were putting up a good fight. The tosser was crying for help and the Slayer for a stake. Very entertaining that. He took another step back as the boy rushed past him, muttering under his breath. Spike was tempted to go after him but a loud crash and a pained yelp from the Slayer distracted him. Fuck, that stupid bint wasn't going to let that dumbass kill her, was she? Nope, there she was, back on her feet and definitely not amused. And there was Xander again, throwing her a stake. He d obviously done this before. The Slayer's little helper. Neat. Ah, damn, now he'd missed the stupid look on the vamp's face just before he crumpled into dust. But the grin of smug satisfaction on the boy's face had been such a lovely sight. Time to introduce himself. He stepped forward, out of the shadows, slowly clapping his hands. "Nice work, luv," he drawled, his eyes fixed on the Slayer. All his other senses concentrated on Xander, wanting to know when the boy would recognize him. He almost staggered backwards when the wave of fear and excitement finally hit him. He looked over at the boy who was staring at him in disbelief. Their eyes met for the briefest of moments before Xander blushed and dropped his gaze to the ground. "Who are you?" the Slayer asked.
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Oh. My. God. This had to be a dream. A very, very bad dream. A nightmare. Cause no way that this was happening. Xander didn’t think he'd ever been this scared in his life. Not even when that vampire - THAT vampire! - had sunk his teeth into his shoulder and he’d been convinced that he was going to die. He had almost succeeded in telling himself that the vampire had been a figment of his all-too-vivid imagination. Almost. If it hadn' t been for the scar. The faint, but still visible scar he always kept carefully hidden. For some reason he had never told the others about his brush with death in the alley. Yeah, right. For some reason. Like he didn’t know exactly why. Wait a minute? Had the guy just said that he was going to kill Buffy? Xander cursed inwardly, realizing that he really should have been paying attention. And now he was gone, just like that. Xander very slowly turned to face the others. "He's gone," he said shakily. "That's good, isn' t?" *** Spike couldn’t stop grinning on his way back to the factory. The look on the Slayer's face when he'd told her he was going to kill her on Saturday. Priceless. And the boy. He obviously hadn’t told his friends about their little encounter. He'd been afraid, very much so. He knew Spike had come back to claim his prize. Oh, and he would. Soon.
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With a frustrated sigh Xander pushed the book Giles had given him aside and went over to Cordelia to help her with the stakes instead. He knew that he wouldn’t find what they were looking for in that book because he'd already gone through it. That one, and the book Giles was leafing through and most of the other books on the table. He’d looked then. Almost a year ago. And he hadn't found anything. Not a single clue. But he'd found other things. Things he'd rather not think about "I'll be back for you, pet." That's what the mark on his shoulder screamed at him whenever he looked in the mirror. A promise. A claim. "Spike," Giles' voice startled him out of his musings. "That's what the other vampire called him?" Spike. What kind of stupid name was that, anyway? "It's a bit unorthodox," Giles continued. Great. He'd unorthodoxically kill Buffy and then he'd come after Xander. Maybe they should just run away. "So, this night of St. Vigeous deal," he said slowly. "If they're gonna attack in force, aren't we thinking vacation?"
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Of course the others would have none of that "let's run away" idea. Instead Giles dug out some more books and continued his research. And look, there was Angel, doing that freaky vampire thing. Appearing out of nowhere, all dark and broody. "He's worse." Huh? He knew that guy? Hey, that was good. Or not, considering that he'd just said that he wouldn’t stop until everything in his path was pretty much dead. "Hmm. So, he's thorough, goal-oriented," Xander mumbled. He probably wouldn’t do him the favour of forgetting about his promise, threat, whatever. Hang on a second, Angel knew that Spike guy. Angel. Angelus. He mentally slapped his forehead. He looked up, wondering how he could coax some more information out of Angel without being too obvious. But the vampire had already left. "Okay, that's it. I'm puttin' a collar with a little bell on that guy," he cursed silently.
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Fuck St. Vigeous. Spike wasn’t good at the waiting game. He wanted the Slayer dead and he wanted the boy. Now. He'd been reluctant to leave Sunnydale without taking the boy with him last time. But Spike had also known that travelling with a fledgling vampire all the way to Europe and back was too great a responsibility. They were hard to control, needed a lot of attention. Much like Dru. He'd actually wanted to wait until she was whole again before he took the boy, but seeing him again, and in the company of the Slayer of all people had stirred something in him. Something he'd not cared to analyse further, because broody self-analysis really wasn't his style. He preferred action. So Spike had mobilized a number of minions, taken them to the school grounds where the Slayer had last been spotted, and was now giving out orders. "You two, guard the door. You, round the back. We'll go in through the window. Won’t that be a lovely surprise?"
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William the Bloody. Slayer of Slayers. Hooray. At least now he knew who would kill him. And wasn't that just the last thing he ever wanted to know. There was a commotion outside, and Xander followed Giles and Jenny into the hall where Buffy came running in their direction, shouting a warning. "Spike and an army! Look out!" They ran back into the library and barricaded the doors. Shit. Shit, shit and had he already said shit?
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"Where's the boy?" Spike asked. The minion he'd ordered to watch out for the Slayer's friends shrugged with an embarrassed grin. "I d-don' t know." "And the Slayer?" "She either went that way," he replied slowly, pointing to the right. "Or that way," pointing to the left. "I saw two others." "You don' t know?" Spike growled and turned to the terrified man he was holding and pushed him away. He was surrounded by idiots, and he really needed to kill someone right now.
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Xander felt like a traitor, a very cowardly traitor at that, leaving his friends behind, but Giles had insisted that he go to get Angel, and truth be told, there was nothing he'd rather do. Angel would know how to get rid of that Spike guy. Wouldn't he?
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Angel realised his mistake the second he entered the school building, dragging Xander Harris with him. But it was too late to do anything about that, really, because Spike had already noticed him and was approaching him slowly with a calculating grin. So he ignored the fact that presenting the boy to the other vampire as a snack to be shared basically equalled suicide. Spike had obviously marked him at some point, it was faint, but still, the boy reeked of his Childe. He couldn’t believe that he had never noticed before, but he hadn't seen Spike in almost a century, and he certainly had never been that up close and personal with the boy. And the fool had certainly not mentioned anything like, "Hey, look, some weirdo vampire has chewed on my neck and forgotten to kill me!". If they survived this little encounter Xander was in for a very long lecture about vampires and fatal secrets. But what the hell, being the closest thing Spike had to a Sire, he just might get away with this harebrained scheme. Whatever had happened during the last century or so, he still had some authority over the other vampire. Not that Spike had ever cared to acknowledge that, even in his fledgling days.
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Spike hugged his Sire warily. What was he up to? He had known something was wrong the second he sensed Angelus in the hall. He tensed when he realized that it was Xander Angelus was holding. The other vampire certainly must have noticed that he had marked the boy as his. Nevertheless he was offering the boy to him as a snack to be shared for old times' sake. Curious Spike decided to play along, just to see how far his Sire would take this little game. "Come up against this Slayer yet?" he asked.
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Xander knew that the two vampires were talking but he couldn’t really hear anything because his heart was beating so loud. The thrumming in his ears was deafening. He was pretty sure he'd die of a heart attack any minute. If he didn’t get killed by one of the vampires first. Which really wouldn’t come as a surprise to him. Suddenly there was yelling and he was roughly pushed aside. Dazed, it took him a couple of seconds to realize what was going on and scramble to his feet. "You were my Sire, man! You were my... Yoda!" Spike yelled, enraged. Xander slowly inched back towards the door, as Spike made his move to attack Angel. The older vampire gave a startled cry when Spike's fist connected with his jaw. Damn, that Spike guy was fast, and strong, but then he already knew that. He'd stopped moving and watched the fighting vampires in awe. Angel snarled and lashed out, missing Spike's head and connecting with his shoulder instead. The blonde vampire staggered backwards before he recovered and more or less successfully blocked some kicks from Angel. Xander noticed more vampires coming into the hall out of the corner of his eye, and somewhere in the back of his mind he thought that he ought to get the hell out of here. But he didn’t move.
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Spike ducked another punch from Angelus and spun around to knock the other vampire out with a well-placed kick. He felt his boot connect with Angelus' skull, and his Sire went down. He had no intention of killing him, Dru needed him alive, more or less, after all. But he could cause him a little pain. And maybe a little more. A whispered "no" from the door stopped him dead in his tracks, though. He looked up, straight into Xander' eyes. Wide with terror and pleading. Such a pretty sight. One he hoped to see more often in future. "Don't kill him," Xander whispered. He half wanted to laugh. Begging for his soon-to-be Grandsire' s life. How poetic was that? From the corner of his eye he saw Angelus stir again, and much to his annoyance he heard the Slayer dusting some of his troops further back in the hallway. "Run," Spike said.
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Xander really didn’t need any further encouragement. He turned around, pushed the door open and ran. Straight into a broad shouldered, game faced vamp. "Ooops," he said, grinning goofily. "Who have we here?" the vampire said confidently. Xander took a step back, searching his pockets frantically for a weapon. Shit, he must have lost his stake when he'd been pushed aside by Angel. Or had that been Spike? Spike! "S-spike won't like it if you kill me," he said slowly, praying it would work. The vampire hesitated. He reached up and carefully exposed the scar. See? All his." The minion flinched back. "You're the boy," he said. Someone burst out of the door behind them, and they both spun around. "Angel!" "Let's get you out of here," Angel said, pushing the other vampire aside and grabbing Xander's arm. "It's not safe for you."
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He pulled Xander with him, ignoring the fact that he was probably bruising his arm, making short work of the few minions they ran into without ever letting go of the boy. "So, er, what's the deal with you being Spike's Sire?" Xander asked finally, just to say something. He yelped surprised when two strong hands grabbed his shoulders and he was roughly pushed against a tree. "Hey!" he protested meekly. Angel ignored him and ripped his shirt open at the top. "What the fuck...?" He hissed when Angel ran a finger over his scar. "Is there something you'd like to tell me?" the vampire asked, in a voice that made clear that he wouldn’t take no for an answer.
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Also das war die Story die bei Season 2 anfängt, vieles ist ähnlich wie in der Serie aber eben doch ein wenig anders. Da sie ja aus dem anderen Thread rauseditiert wurde hab ich hier nochmal beide Teile reinkopiert. Hoffe das war ok
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Gast
TBCTitle: How?
Pairing: Spike/Xander
Disclaimer: I don't own anything, okay, maybe the cheese in the fridge, that has gone bad long time ago but that's not really worthy.
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How?
Spike walked down the dark alley, kicking every now and then against the stone, that had chosen to accompany him, ever since he had left Xanders basement.
//I didn't come this far for you to make this hard for me.//
Yeah right, like hell! Being around Xander, seeing him, watching him, smelling him, for the last two weeks didn't nearly make him go insane. Didn't give him shivers. Didn't make him freeze each time, they accidentally touched.
Sitting beside his bed, while he was sleeping with just one wish. To crawl into the bed, next to him, cover Xanders body, with his own. Feeling him.
Surrounding him and being surrounded. Resting his head on Xander's chest, that was slowly rising and falling while a steady silent snore came from the boy under the sheets.
Spike caught himself more than once, leaning on the doorframe on top of the stairs arguing with himself about going down or turning around.
Mostly he figured, it would be better, to turn around, go outside, smoke some cigarettes or beat up some demons, in lack of other ways to get rid of his energy, but every now and then he gave in to it.
Every now and than he went down the stairs, sitting beside Xanders bed, or just standing in front of it, closing his eyes and just listened to the constant heartbeat. Felt it, as if it was his own.
// And now you want to ask me "how"?//
// It's like - How does your heart beat, and why do you breathe?//
Normally thinking about a human heartbeat would make me go all bumpy and fangy, and now?
Spike desperately shook his head, gave the stone one last kick and watched, while it hit the door, he was standing in front of.
Willy's, once again.
Why do I always end up here? It's not like the blood here is better than anywhere else! blood's blood, right?
*Wrong*, a little voice in his head insisted. *It's different, when the mug of blood is heated by a bloke with brown hair and unbelievable deep brown eyes, who sometimes watched you while...*
Shut up! As if he ever watched me! Spike snorted.
He shook his head once again, then opened the door and got inside the Bar. Just the normal customers, some demons. Even some humans were there, sitting in a dark, gloomy corner.
Xander never fancied coming here. He once did *because of you* the little voice inside his head eagerly threw in.
Spike settled down on a chair, next to the Bar.
If you don't shut up, I have to drown you.
"Give me..." Spike looked at the various bottles that were lined up on the shelf in front of a mirror, who reflected everything, besides him.
He searched the pockets of his duster, just to find out, that he was nearly broke. He put the few dollars on the bar table, looked up to meet Willy's eyes, who was waiting for his order.
"Just give me something cheap. Lots of it. And a mug of blood to gulp it down." Spike caught Willies glance at the crumpled dollar bills and back to the vampire. "Look, if it isn't enough, just write it down. I'll pay it later."
Spike let his head fall down on the table, waiting for his drinks to arrive.
Willy turned around, unsure, what to do.
Normally he didn't give drinks out on credit. But this was Spike.
Not, that he would really fancy him, but after all he'd heard, it wasn't exactly the best thing, to mess with him either, so he poured a drink into a glass, put it in front of Spike, and left the bottle, as Spike caught his wrist, glancing up at him once again.
Then he went to the room at the back, to heat the blood. He always kept the blood in the back, since once a group of starving vampires freaked out after getting out of a basement, the slayer had trapped them in. At least, that's what had been said about it.
"Make it hot, will ya?" But as Spike looked up once more, Willy was already gone.
He took the glass from the table, raised it and made a light movement to his invisible reflection. He shivered, as the burning feeling made his way down his throat, warming him from the inside.
Goodbye brain!
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Zuletzt geändert von Gast am Mo 11 Nov, 2002 5:57 pm, insgesamt 1-mal geändert.
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Gast
How, part 2

TBCXander finally managed to calm down enough, to climb out of the bed and get dressed.
He looked around in the basement, searching for *Spike* something that would proof, that he didn't just dream about Spike being here.
Of course he was here, for the last two weeks or even longer.
After Harmony had kicked him out of his crypt, he didn't know a better place to go. Xander's basement was just a... makeshift.
But at the moment, he was looking for any proof, that Spike really had been here, in his room, the last night, and probably the night before, and the one before that.
//Why did you come here?//
//You weren't invited.//
Xander definitely didn't ask him to come. Or to stay. Or anything like that. He couldn't even stand him!
*like hell*
Oh great, now I start talking like him. The two weeks staying with Spike definitely had their influence...
But somehow it felt... right. Spike, being there, when Xander got home from work, watching the telly with him, laughing about the same cartoons.
Of course, Spike also annoyed the hell out of him, but even that felt good.
*now you admit it, huh?*
Xander went up the stairs, looking around, then letting the breath out, he had been holding, glad, that no one was home.
He wouldn't have been able to face his mother right now.
He headed to the kitchen, to get some food. Doesn't matter how nervous or cranky he felt, he was always hungry.
It was something after midnight and he should be sleeping right now, cause after all he still had to go to work tomorrow.
He sat down on the chair beside the kitchen-table, putting a bowl of cereals in front of him.
He had taken a bowl he had already used earlier today out of the sink, so he wouldn't have to wash another one, after he was done eating.
There was no way for him, getting back to sleep. And neither could he think about going to work tomorrow. Or doing anything else, which other humans would consider as 'normal'.
He looked down on his bowl, sniffing. Another stupid attitude he had contracted from Spike.
As he touched a finger on the outside of the bowl, he felt cold wetness, and as he pulled it away again, there was a small drop of blood on it.
Damn it, Spike! Either you could clean your dishes, or you could make sure, that no one else uses them that's gross!
//And there are some things that I'd like to figure out.//
Xander leaned back in his chair, watching the drop of blood running down on his finger, while remembering last night.
He knew, he went to bed soon after coming back from work. And he knew, that Spike said, he was going to be out, cause he didn't want to bump into Xanders parents. Which was a thing he didn't really need to worry about, cause Xander had told them, that Spike would stay here for a few days. Besides, he hadn't seen them in the last days.
Obviously, they had, once more, disappeared without saying a word.
He also remembered this weird dream. And that Spike had a major part in it. One of those naked-naughty-parts.
//You were on the outside - Stay on the outside.//
Everything had been so much easier, when they had just hated each other's guts and felt fine with it.
But more and more Xander had become comfortable with the thought of 'having Spike around him'.
Sometimes, when he came home from work earlier, because *you skipped it* they didn't have much work to do, he found himself staying behind the couch, where Spike was lying, just watching the blond while he slept.
Of course, when the desire to touch those perfect cheekbones came up, he turned away, trying to think of something else. And when Spike woke up a little bit later, he couldn't look him in the eyes, because he thought, Spike somehow just must know.
And maybe he did. Maybe he wasn't asleep, while Xander watched him. Or maybe he was, but still knew. Vampire instinct and everything
//And there are some things that I'd like to figure out.//
Why would Spike have been standing beside his bed the other night? Why would he have blushed, as Xander opened his eyes, blinking to see, what woke him up. And why did Xander automatically rise his hand to touch his lips... like Spike did, Xander noticed, after he finally accustomed to the dark?
He wasn't even able to say a word, before the vampire spun around on his heels, running out into the night.
Spike had kissed him.
Just thinking of it, while he was still sitting on the kitchen table made him blush, and he once again raised his hand to his lower lip, stroking over it softly. A small red stripe from the blood stayed on his lip, as he put his hand down again.
*and we liked it*
Oh, just shut up!
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@ Mys: wegen *sweet revenge*. die fic findest du auf www.my-immortal-beloved.co.uk/sweet1-4.html. dann geht sie immer weiter bis zu part ? und ... surprise, surprise ... ist leider nicht fertig.
ich mag die story total gern, denn sie erzählt s5 im prinzip neu, nur halt mit anderen hadlnungssträngen.
@ margie:
für *distracted*. ich find die fic einfach irgendwie interessant und klasse.
oh mann ... ich seh schon, heute wird wieder ein alles nachlese abend werden, damit ich mit euch mithalten kann.
@ margie:
oh mann ... ich seh schon, heute wird wieder ein alles nachlese abend werden, damit ich mit euch mithalten kann.
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dacht ich mir doch, dass die noch nicht fertig ist...hab mich schon gewundert... wäre irgendwie ein komischer schluss gewesenwinterblue hat geschrieben:dann geht sie immer weiter bis zu part ? und ... surprise, surprise ... ist leider nicht fertig.ich mag die story total gern, denn sie erzählt s5 im prinzip neu, nur halt mit anderen hadlnungssträngen.
und, schon nachgelesen?oh mann ... ich seh schon, heute wird wieder ein alles nachlese abend werden, damit ich mit euch mithalten kann.
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How? part 3
"Don't you think you had enough?"
Spike finally noticed the man, standing in front of him. He smirked, but it turned out to look rather unhappy and not half as good as it normally would.
"Grown-up little vampire myself. I know, when I had enough..."
Willy turned away, shacking his head. Than came back with another mug of blood.
"I didn't..." Spike protested, but Willy interrupted him forcefully.
"I know, but I'm not going to pour you another drink. Come on, I'll pay this one."
He shoved over the mug and winked at Spike.
"Drink it down, and then go to see the girl that caused your circumstances, and make up with her."
Willy grinned while he continued cleaning the bar table.
If you only knew... And when had Willy become so damn friendly, anyway?
"I can't..." Spike tried to explain, but stopped himself, not knowing, what to say.
Why did I kiss Xander? I'm such a bloody idiot!
//And there are some things that I'd like to figure out.//
Spike didn't plan it. As he walked down the stairs the other night, it was because he had been driven away from the couch by Xanders mum, who just stumbled in with a guy, who definitely wasn't Xanders dad.
Not that they cared about him, but he *used it as a good excuse* figured it would be better to get out of the living room for a while.
As he was on top of the stairs, he once again found himself caught in that warmth, which seemed to come from Xander. A warmth, which made him feel welcomed, pleased, and... almost alive.
Yeah, right. Dead man's walkin' down the stairs, feeling alive. Tell me another one.
As he heard the door in the living room close again, he could have gone back, settle on the couch or make himself a proper meal. But he was still standing there, halfway down the stairs, watching the brunette. It really was everything he saw, brown hair, all shaggy and fluffy spread on the pillow.
Xanders back was turned towards Spike, but he imagined his face. All smooth, except the little bit of a stubbly beard, because Spike didn't remember seeing him shave in the last few days. A few of the locks hanging over his eyes, tickling his nose, and he imagined stroking them out of Xanders face.
//And now you want to ask me "why"?//
He wasn't able to resist, so he had walked around the bed, to face Xander. Of course, not really face him, cause Xander was sleeping and all, but still...
As he was standing there, he once more felt, what he had been feeling the whole past week.
Silence, but not in an unpleasant way.
Heat, but not in a sun-burning way.
Love, but not in an obsessed way, as it had been with Buffy.
He felt... complete.
And he couldn't just stay there, as he did the other nights. It wasn't enough anymore. So he settled next to Xanders bed, sitting on the floor, his hands and his head carefully placed on the pillow, next to Xander, without touching him. Without making a move. If he could breath, he would have held it, to not wake the boy up.
And he just sat there, no idea, how long. Maybe just minutes, maybe hours. it didn't really matter. It felt good.
Until I screwed it, of course!
Spike raised his head from his hands, once again facing the mirror, without really facing anything.
He took the mug, gulped the blood down and shivered.
Then he stood up and left the Bar, without saying goodbye to Willy, who watched him concerned.
And now? Where to go? Any idea?
*Don't ask me, you left the home we had*
Oh great, I'm not only talking to myself, I'm also answering... insanity, you're welcome!
Spike turned around, walking back the dark alley he came from, brooding and thinking... which suited him unexpectedly good.
I've always thought just Angel is such a loser. And now, what do I do? Walking through dark alleys, thinking about *the one you love* the one I've used.
He rolled his eyes. Now, as he thought about it, it became clear.
He begged Xander to let him in, which Xander did. He lived with him, the past two weeks, and Xander didn't say a word. And in a moment of weakness, he used the defencelessness of the boy, and kissed him, just because he couldn't control his temper.
// There are some things that I can do without -//
It's not, like that changed anything. There's no problem, in going back to his crypt, kicking Harmony out, and just go on, living the life Spike had before. He could do that. Or he could just go on, walking down the Alley, thinking about what a stupid moron he was.
Sounds like a plan
Once again he saw Xander, how he looked at him, as he had woken up the other night.
Flashbacks are something for TV, don't bother me with it anymore!
He bashed his hand against the wall, and fascinated watched the few drops of blood, running down his wrist. He raised his arm to his mouth, licking them away, leaving a red spot on his upper lip.
How did Xander look?
Shocked? Disappointed?
*You know, that you're evil... forgot about that? *
Apparently I did, evil fiends don't kiss their enemies.
Spike tried to think of nothing. Just blank, cold, nothing.
But mostly, nothing doesn't stay blank very long.
He just had had to touch these lips. He wanted to just sit there, rest his head on the same pillow as Xander, feeling the boy's breath warm along his cheeks, while he watched the brunette. But without any control, he started to take his hand from the pillow, moving towards Xanders face.
As Xander moved, and snorted a little bit, he jerked away.
That's where he should have went away. Where he just should have stood up and leave the basement. But he didn't. And as Xanders breath calmed down again, he took up, what he started.
As he touched Xanders lower lip, stroking along the arched line he slightly shivered.
His eyes widened, as Xander moved his head. Not in a fast, shocked way, but in a... nuzzling way.
A smile flickered over the boys mouth while he continued stroking against the finger on his lips, gently biting the pale skin.
Spike hadn't been able to resist.
What did I think? Even if he would have liked it... what he surly didn't... how should that go on?
// like you, and the people that were never friends//
Dating at night, holding hands, when no one watches, making out on the coach, like Teenagers. Not really the life-style of a Big Bad.
*But probably of the Big Bad, who has a crush on Buffy's whelp*
Buffy... She's another problem.
Spike has moved on, he didn't want Buffy anymore, that wouldn't be the problem. The problem would be, that Buffy surely didn't want Spike as a lover of one of her fri...
Ok, stop that! LOVER? I kissed him! That's all! It's not, that I want to marry him, for God's sake!
*But we would look so gorgeous in a suit*
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How, part 4? jaja, 4 müsst etwa stimmen
(erm... zwischen-rückmeldungen sind durchaus erwünscht, weil, wenn's nicht gut ist lass ich's nämlich sein, mit dem posten
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(erm... zwischen-rückmeldungen sind durchaus erwünscht, weil, wenn's nicht gut ist lass ich's nämlich sein, mit dem posten
Xander was straying up and down in the kitchen. As he glimpsed over to the clock once again, he saw, that it was past half two. He had expected Spike to come back after a cigarette break. Maybe half and hour. Or an hour. But now he started to worry.
*Uh-hu?*
Oh come on! I am somehow concerned, I admit it. It's not that I would hate him.
*since when not?*
I...
Well, that was the point... since when not? He couldn't tell, what had exactly happened in the past two weeks, but somehow some of Spikes habits like sipping his blood seemed sexy instead of annoying. When they went on patrol together he felt save instead of defenceless and when Buffy mocked the vampire, he wanted to tell her, she should keep her mouth...
*Boy, you have so lost it...*
You telling me? Great!
Finally Xander couldn't stand it anymore, waiting, without doing anything so he went down to the basement again, grasped his coat and left through the backdoor.
As the cold, fresh air touched his face and he breathed in deep, he felt better. Not long and not much, but it was something.
He started walking down the road, without thinking about a direction or anything. He didn't plan on stalking Spike
*more like staking, right?*
He decided to ignore this little idea, that popped up in his head.
He also decided to ignore the feeling of bouncing his head against a wall, to stop those ideas from popping.
Instead he kept walking, faster than before, panting harshly.
//and you, and the people that were never friends.//
Maybe he could look in at Willow's place.
*and tell her...*
What ever!
Maybe she would understand him! At least, she's the one with the special liking for her own gender.
I never said, that there is a 'special liking' or what so ever...
Maybe Spike would even be there. The last time he got dumped he went to see Willow, didn't he?
I didn't dump him.
*Cause you didn't had the time to*
Xander turned around, withdrawing from the main street. The light was too harsh, the people too loud and Xander too sensitive at the moment.
Or he could just stop by and have a nice chat with Buffy...
*At nearly three o'clock in the morning... she surly will be happy*
Well, why don't you start to make suggestions.
*Did I scare our Vampire away or you?*
I didn't mean...
Xander stopped, all of a sudden and replayed his self-discussion.
When did I start to use possessive pronouns in context with Spike?
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Spike was sitting on a tombstone, a lit cigarette in his left hand, which slowly burned down, without being noticed.
No place to go. No demons to kill. Nothing to do... just thinking.
Thinking about how bloody stupid he had been
He sniffed the air, looking for some distraction in whatever sense of the word. Just something to keep his mind from diving too deep in self-pity.
I screwed it. I have to stand up for it. It's not the first time.
He hissed in shock as the cigarette burned his fingers, and snapped it away. Then he stood up and left the graveyard in direction of Xanders basement.
And when I'm there I do... what exactly?
Spike rolled his eyes. Definitely a part of this plan he still had to work on. But at least, he had about ten minutes, until he would be there. That should be enough to... *turn around and walk away?*
Yeah, that too...
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Oh man ich würde ja gerne Kommentare liefern, aber ich komme ja zu nix. Bin nur am nachlesen von normalen Posts. Hab auch noch gar nicht meine emails gecheckt und da stapeln sich auch so schon 6 Storys die sich interessant anhören wer weiss was da heute noch dazugekommen ist. Also winterblue soweit hinterher hinkst du gar nicht. 
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how, part 5 (ich will ja nicht, dass euch langweilig wird, gell?
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Ok, I can't go anywhere, and I can't walk through whole Sunnydale hunting down a crazy vampire who kissed me. So, what's the next best thing to do?
Xander suddenly stopped his headless trip, and turned in the direction his parents flat was.
He's old enough. He doesn't need me looking after him, does he?
// With all the things that you could be//
He doesn't even need me, being with him.
It would be easy for Spike, finding another place to stay. Probably He was probably already looking for a new crypt. Or maybe a flat this time. Or what about a sewerage? All Angel-like.
Yeah, he doesn't need me.
*And he kissed you because of...*
Xander hissed in frustration. That doesn't make sense. Nothing of all that made sense to him. And he definitely didn't have the guts to think long enough about it and probably figure it out.
At the moment he was just able to do some low level thoughts.
Vampires are bad.
Spike's a vampire.
Therefore Spike's... just an inch or two smaller than him. Perfect to nibble on his upper lip and maybe...
Xander abruptly stopped in his movement.
Holy shit! Where did that came from?
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Damn, he's gone.
Spike opened the basement door. Xander didn't close it, as he went out, the door stood wide open and no one was at home.
I didn't just screw it up with him. I also scared him out of his own basement.
*Good job!*
// And there are some things that I'd like to figure out//
Spike sat down on a stone beside the door, after closing it carefully.
He lit himself another cigarette, and this time he really planed on smoking it.
The best thing will be, when I'm just tell him, that it was a mistake, that I was drunken or that I...
*accidently crashed down on his mouth?*
He leaned back against the wall, closing his eyes letting a breath out, he didn't need and tried once again to think nothing. And once again his brain tricked him into memories of the whelp. How he was lying in his bed, arms hugged around himself, hairs messy hanging into his face, eye-lids lightly flattering as if he was dreaming.
Spike could see him so clear in front of his eyes, he bet he could even smell the boy.
As he heard a low husky cough, he opened his eyes again, and there he was.
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